1. Behind the Eight Ball

There was light shining down on me
Shining down on everything that I needed to see
So I packed my bags
And headed for the palm trees
Freeways
With sandy people inside

Since I arrived something inside of me died
Everyday I scraped by
This life is for the dogs
Dogs eat better than me

First it took away everything that I owned
Everything that I knew and used to get along
Friends are of the past
Heart’s in pieces
And I’m out of glue

I know that it breaks your heart
It breaks mine too
Living so far apart
Night after night
Day after day
What the hell am I doing
With my life anyway

Slog like a slave
At a job I hate
For a chance a hope
A twist of fate
But I keep on rolling sevens
And I’m lying behind the eight ball

Slowly my mind
Has been twisted through time
I think to myself
I’m losing myself
I just got ahead
But I’m stealing tokens from the house

Nothing makes much sense to me
Working for green
With no meaning
Cruel to give a man desire
‘Cause I’m running out of fuel to take me higher
But I will keep on moving on

Thought I had a choice
But I never control
Born with creative disposition
Love to fight the odds
4900 to one

Never had a doubt
Never thought twice about
Reaching the top
Reserved a spot
Well I just lost the ticket
And the doorman’s bigger than me

Looks like it’s the back door baby
For me

© 2003 Michael Gabriel

2. Dear Lord

Thought I had a little more left in me
Thought I could swim up river to the sea
My arms are tired, needing rest
Body, mind and soul lost sight of shore
I’m sinking slowly soon

He says,
Worry not I’m here
Watching your every move
Riding all waves you made for yourself
You will find peace soon
Again

Thought I had everything figured out
Heavy rain can be a blessing in a drought
Coming home alone
There’s nobody there
Waking up to myself telling me
I’ll make it through one more day

Dear Lord,
Can you send someone for me
Even if it’s for one more night
All of the others have all slipped away
I guess I held too tight
Again

© 2003 Michael Gabriel

3. Enough

All times I’ve tried
Been shot down and denied
Are my scars hard to see

Enough for you
How is my follow through
I shot down the line

Don’t leave
But leave them behind
The feelings that make you feel
Not good enough for me
My love I too dance with the dark
Together we’ll be
The best of what we believe

Un-harden
Tears will soften
Skin leathered from pain
Angels are devils
When all of their words unheard
When love is unloved

Your hate is my fuel
Stones thrown
Turn into jewels
I learned on the way

When roads get rough
What will I pay to stay
In line with my love

Yes I’m moving on
Living my life in song
‘Til my time has come

No one can stop me how
Even if they know how
To hurt where I hurt

© 2003 Michael Gabriel

4. Four Seasons

Oh my love I know
Summer has past
Middle of winter
Came when you arose
Into my life
My love you must leave me
Before I go
Into a place of which I can’t return

Oh my love I know
Something that feels
So right is so wrong
Now I must go
Condition has led me to a road
That will never flow
Meander me back
But not to my pattern

Lying lonely
Inside of the rain again
Trampled in abandonment and shame
Life is a game
My love I can’t believe
I let someone like you into my life

These words are now through
Take them with you
Next spring
When you fall for someone new
Remember that pain
Hides inside truth
Love will lead the way
If you keep not pain in your pattern

© 2003 Michael Gabriel

5. One Last Chance

She lays traps on the ground
Hoping you will fall through
Severe sentimental thoughts
Cutting through everything
You thought that mattered
In this lifetime
But you were wrong

On the edge
She tell you jump
With wings that have never been worn
And it wears you thin

If I could cast one last chance
Dance inside of the flame
I’d give my all
No matter how far I’d fall
I would risk it all for this

You will do anything for her
And she knows
She knows you will

Challenge every thought you have
Break beliefs
Give you directions
You swore that you would never take
But you were wrong

Can’t shake the madness
Oh this madness is shaking me
Rain coming down
Pouring all over what I could have
Then takes it away

© 2003 Michael Gabriel

6. The Only King

Stumble outside of your world
Into a world that we all share
What have we done to her
She only seems to give we only take

And you’re trying to fly into a world
Where love is the only king that rules
Borders are erased

Peaceful the world outside
How peaceful the world can be inside
Like a bud in full-bloom
I see you wings spread
You leave from your cocoon

It seems so hard to free
The life living deep inside of me
But I can’t keep holding on to fear anymore

Just take one second now
To see how the hurt can crumble down
The one true thing that you wanted so long
The heart that was strong turned coal into stone
Leaving me so cold

And I’m finding it hard
Finding it hard to walk inside of the dark
Lonely nights keep me from sleep
From shattered dreams on empty streets
From shattered dreams on endless streets

© 2003 Michael Gabriel